Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Happy 9th Month! Also Happy Birthday to my little girl, Emily!

Gee I almost forgot. This is a day late. Oh well.
Also Happy Birthday to my sweet baby Emily who turned 7 today! Emily told me today even though she is now a big kid, she will always be my baby!

I guess it is time for an update. Well CCAA has matched a whopping 6 more days. Bringing us to 11/7/05. With this rate I hate to say it but it looks like the we are hitting the end of June 2009. Yes I repeat 2009. I'm not ready to believe in that year. Alot can happen. At this point I'm still hoping for a referral by Christmas 2008.

My heart is telling me that we will be matched with a waiting child. We turned in a checklist in mid April. I think we will hopefully see a referral through this program maybe by end of this year/early next year. Please keep in mind, they may have us look at a file -- it doesn't mean we will accept it. Bill is open to a special needs child but he is very cautious about what we will accept. If we don't accept the referral, our place is still in line for the non-special needs program.

We have been seeing referrals of some very young babies -- 6-8 months old at time of travel. We would like as young as possible so it is very tempting for us to stay just in the non special needs category and just stick it out.

It is very hard to wait. I try to remain optimistic and on most days can. It is just hard to wrap my mind around that fact that we could be waiting until 2009. A lot can change in all of these years of waiting. I'm not even sure by then we would want another child. Emily would be 9 by then. How I wish (1) my body would produce another child -- not happening (2) we started this Chinese adoption so much sooner rather than wasting our time and money on infertility treatments. 2 freaking years down the tube. oh well cannot change the past.

That's it for now. I will try to be better about posting updates.