I guess it is time for an update. Well CCAA has matched a whopping 6 more days. Bringing us to 11/7/05. With this rate I hate to say it but it looks like the we are hitting the end of June 2009. Yes I repeat 2009. I'm not ready to believe in that year. Alot can happen. At this point I'm still hoping for a referral by Christmas 2008.
My heart is telling me that we will be matched with a waiting child. We turned in a checklist in mid April. I think we will hopefully see a referral through this program maybe by end of this year/early next year. Please keep in mind, they may have us look at a file -- it doesn't mean we will accept it. Bill is open to a special needs child but he is very cautious about what we will accept. If we don't accept the referral, our place is still in line for the non-special needs program.
We have been seeing referrals of some very young babies -- 6-8 months old at time of travel. We would like as young as possible so it is very tempting for us to stay just in the non special needs category and just stick it out.
It is very hard to wait. I try to remain optimistic and on most days can. It is just hard to wrap my mind around that fact that we could be waiting until 2009. A lot can change in all of these years of waiting. I'm not even sure by then we would want another child. Emily would be 9 by then. How I wish (1) my body would produce another child -- not happening (2) we started this Chinese adoption so much sooner rather than wasting our time and money on infertility treatments. 2 freaking years down the tube. oh well cannot change the past.
That's it for now. I will try to be better about posting updates.
Jen
7 comments:
It's hard to not get drawn into the "What If" or "If Only We'd..." scenarios, isn't it?
Happy Birthday to your sweet Emily!
Happy 9 months.
Ok. So, who is that creature in the picture? I recognize him (her?) from Sesame Street - but know that it is not Elmo, or C.Monster. Someone new?
Nine months? Well, that is pretty respectable. I'm glad to be in line with you. XO
wzgirl -- his name is Telly!
Gotta love Google -- here is some info
On his debut in 1979, he was known as the Television Monster, a character that was fixated on television. He had antennae standing out of the top of his head, and his eyes would whirl around when he watched television. After that stint through season eleven, producers worried that he would be a negative influence on their easily influenced viewers, and changed him into the worry-wart character that he has been ever since.
1979???????????????
Well, now that I think of if - I prob had graduated to Land of the Lost by then. That and the Big Blue Marble. I do not remember Telly. Poor ol' worry wart.
I have been looking at your website and feel as if I could have written word for word your thoughts and feelings...My husband and I have an 8 year old daughter through invitro (years)..our LID is 8/29/06 and I am losing my patience and I am scared too..we live in North Atlanta..I would love to talk..
First, congrats on making to 9 months and sticking around this long. We all have a very long wait ahead of us, and it is good that we are not doing it alone.
Second, I will be interested to see how the waiting child program works for you. Since we have such a long time to wait, other options are starting to look very tempting.
p.s. totally agree on the time lost in our pre-adoption quests. live and learn, huh?
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