Just love this face...

Today's Pictures - We had a good day!

Today was a very good day for us.

Welcome Home Photos on 2/2

19 days since we met Ricky.....

wow...it seems like yesterday literally.

How are things going? well to say things are all rosy and good, I would be lying.

Do not think that this is easy. It is probably one of the most difficult things I have done.

Ricky is a little toddler in the mind of an infant. Sure his movements are of a 17 month old, but his brain is really probably 9-12 months old -maybe younger. I'm not concerned about this - he will catch up in time. I called Georgia's Baby's Can't Wait program for an early evaluation. I'm not sure he will qualify for anything but I would like an experts opinion. We also moved up his pediatrician appointment from Wednesday to Monday.

The period of adjustment for all of us will go on for a long period of time. We have been home a week - Ricky has slept through the night once. It doesn't help right now, we believe he has 2 to 3 teeth coming through. Friday was full of temper tantrums as we try to set some limits on what he can and cannot do. He is very very active. Cannot sit still for more than a minute or two unless he is eating. Everything is so new for him.

Friday was tough but there are glimmers of good moments. He has a great smile and laugh. I can just hope that these glimmers turned into minutes and minutes into hours and hours into days.

So if you ask me if I'm happy - I might give a small smile or might even say not really. Does it mean I regret what we did? No. He is our son. He will be our joy just like Emily is our joy. It will just take time. I know this. He is our son.